For once just go with it…

Why can’t people just let go and go with it? Why can’t you let go and be happy for once? What are people so scared of? I can’t help but question these factors. You could miss out on something that would’ve been so amazing just because you were a little scared. Everyone gets their heart broken. It’s the way of the world and I understand not wanting to go through it again. And I speak from experience when it comes to being heart broken. It does suck, but I’m not going to throw something away that could be amazing. “One” and I are still talking, but he’s so guarded that I want to scream. Finally, I just went on a little rampage and threw out all the ideas I’d had about him not wanting what he wanted. Guess what? He agreed with me on all of them. The one that stuck out the most to me is that he’s scared that I’m going to hurt him, which I AM NOT. Well not intentionally and I don’t plan on it. I just want to be happy and being around him makes me that way. You never know what could happen or where things would go, but I may not ever know because he’s too scared to even start something. I want to shake him and tell him to give me what I want. I’m not used to not getting what I want. I’m not trying to sound cocky, but I can be pretty persuasive when it comes to things I want. Whether it is boys, items, or jobs. People like me and I like people. Plus I may or may not have a smile that lights up a room. 🙂

So, I ask again why run? You’re going to ruin something that could be amazing, but you’re too scared to take a chance and I’m not going to wait around on your forever. Be bold. Be free. Take a chance.

Wanted to share….

Angels

It happens like this. One day you meet someone and for some inexplicable reason, you feel more connected to this stranger that anyone else- closer to them than your closest family. Perhaps this person carries within them an angel- one sent to you for some higher purpose; to teach you an important lesson or to keep you safe during a perilous time. What you must do is trust in them- even if they come hand in hand with pain or suffering- the reason for their presence will become clear in due time.

Though here is a word of warning- you may grow to love this person but remember they are not yours to keep. Their purpose isn’t to save you but to show you how to save yourself. And once this is fulfilled; the halo lifts and the angel leaves their body as the person exists your life. They will be a stranger to you once more.

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It’s so dark right now, I can’t see any light around me. That’s because the light is coming from you. You can’t see it but everyone else can. 

-Lang Leav

I read this and can’t help but think about all the people that have come in and out of my life for one reason or another. Some have made me smile and some have made me so sad that I can’t even fathom why they were in my life to begin with. And then there’s that one person who leaves a major indent in your life, you can’t stop thinking about them, you want them around all the time, and you can not fathom the idea of that person walking out of your life, but 9 times out of 10 that’s what happens and it destroys you. But after reading this I’ve realized the reason why and it’s made the outcome so much easier. I understand it now. 

♥ Kirsten

Things Could Be Worse…

ImageFor the most part, I fully believe that life gets better and things in life will get better, but lately life has been throwing me some good ones. This past year has probably been one of the hardest years of my entire life, but also good in the fact of finding who I truly am has came about. I feel like doing cartwheels when I think about all the things that I have accomplished since last year and it makes me happy. 🙂

ImageI’m still going to college, which has become a blessing in disguise to be honest. I’ve moved in with my parents this past year due to falling so far behind that I just could not live on my own anymore without making it worse. So, I broke down and moved back home at the age of 31. Guess how hard that was/is! I try and look on the bright side of this, and so far the bright side is that a} I’m becoming closer with my family again. Something I didn’t realize was getting so bad, b}I’m saving up more money, okay I’m trying to, and c} I’m actually becoming more of an adult instead of the wild teenager I was or have been in the past. Guess it’s time for me to grow up.

ImageA couple weeks ago, a great man was killed in a freak accident. My Papa, Richard Kurtz was going across the road to grab the dog that had run across the street. On his way back across the road, an older gentleman hit him, killing my papa and the dog instantly. My Papa was an amazing person full of orneriness and love. He wasn’t my real grandpa, but the moment my parents got married, he took us in as his actual grandchildren and loved us like we were his own. The cool thing that’s came out of this is that the story was on the news, then a paper in New York, United Kingdom, St. Louis, and Washington D.C. picked up the story and wrote amazing articles about him. I know he’s shaking his head up in Heaven and laughing at the idea that he became famous for a little while. It also makes me feel better knowing that when he got to Heaven, my Nana was waiting there for him with open arms. This has been really hard for my whole family. Everyone loved him completely and immensely.

257[1] My love life is non-existent to a point. I do have quite a few boys/men that I talk to or hang out with, but nothing serious with any of them, even though I’d really like to be with one of them. His name will not be released, but I will call him “One“. I dated him in high school and things just didn’t work out, and then I dated him again when my ex and I broke up for awhile, and now that I’m single he just seems to pop into my life at the most random times. We actually went out the other night and had dinner. Then we went to this lake and just sat there laughing and talking. It was AMAZING! I don’t get to do that with very many people, but with him I’m just so comfortable and I want him sooooooooooooooooooo bad to be mine, so everyone cheer for this to happen. He’s a tad wild and always has been which was something I liked about him so much when we were younger, but I think I scare him because he’s gonna have to settle down some and I don’t think he knows how to handle that. But I’m going to get what I want. It’s going to happen! 🙂

Well this entry has been pretty long so I will just end it here.

♥Kirsten

I am back!!!!!

It’s taken me awhile to build up the courage to get back on here and put my thoughts down for the world to see. A very long time. Almost a year has gone by or maybe longer since I last posted something. It makes me very happy to see that people who I was following are still on here and posting things still. This post won’t be too long because I’m tired and have to work tomorrow, but I just wanted to say I’M BACK PEOPLE!!!!!  I will probably post another post later today about what’s been going on. Now that one may be pretty long, so you’d have to bare with me.

♥ Kirsten